Offense, Drama, DTR, and the likes

I wish I could say what I feel and not have the other person be offended. I am talking about any kind of relationship--dating, sibling, friends, etc. And it isn't limited to whether they take offense, it is also the fact that I do not express my feelings and in the end I feel far away. Sometimes I let silly things bother me so I just let them stew over time and they go away eventually but I would feel lot better if I had spoken to someone about it. In my experiences of telling the person who has hurt me, I feel worse after telling them because I alone would rather feel those negative emotions and just forget about it. I look at the relationships I have right now, and they are so awesome and fun! I really love my friends and family. But every now and then things are hard and I just try and truck on through it without really expressing any concern about it. It is important to me that the other person is happy and feels the least pain as possible--no DTR, no drama. But if there is only happiness can we truly call it happiness? If there wasn't an opposite--a relationship with no pain and sorrow--then aren't we cutting short the greatest amount of joy we could feel? Man, I don't know where to even start to be better at this.

Gay Dumbledore

Oh man. Thank you so much, JK. and I don't mean "just kidding," I mean the author, JK Rowling. OK yeah I am kidding too. This kind of ruins Harry Potter for me.
But hey, thank goodness she announced this AFTER I read the series...
actually wait - I have to read these books to my children as an elementary school teacher! I am going to LOVE that. no, no I am not.
No offense Dumbledore, but just think - you and Minerva McGonagall could have had the most awesome secret relationship!

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Overcoming the Peeves of the Pet

Alright, so I caught myself red handed. It just looked so good! And now I am convinced that it isn't as bad as I thought it was.

Oh, I am talking about Pet Peeve #1 and #2.
The word "sweet" and ":)"

Here is where I used a smiley face:
:) (mmm feels so good)

Here is where I used "sweet" in my formally hated context:

3:10 PM me: hey sorry

how are you?

Alyson: oh good now

i was so worried when you disappeared

i thought deer creek dam had broken and taken out your office buiding

3:11 PM me: hahah

yeah that is the only thing that could take me away

Alyson: hahahaha........ha.................

that would be so sad

but I'd have a lakefront house

so would your parents

YES

3:12 PM me: sweet

hot dang

Alyson: speaking of natural disasters, i need to find out what natural disasters virginia is susceptible to

me: haha

yeah

you do that

3:13 PM Alyson: oh don't worry i will

and when i do i'll pass the info along so you know too

3:14 PM me: haha

k

3:15 PM Alyson: one is flooding

me: uh oh

3:16 PM those sea side states!

3:17 PM Alyson: i know

California; Corona Del Mar

I went with 3 elementary school teachers, so because they are so blasted busy they won't give me pictures from the trip so I guess you will just have to picture everything in your brain instead of having me make it easy for you.

Alright, I am no longer angry! Let's talk about my TRIP!

A week ago today at this very hour I was in the beautiful state of California. We stayed in a house just 3 blocks off the beach. Here is a picture of the beach.

It was at this very beach in the cave at the very bottom of this picture where I found a HUMONGOUS crab! and at the very end of the beach at the top left hand corner I found ANOTHER CRAB! I just started digging in the sand because I saw a lil divet. I hit something hard so I dug around the hard surface, expecting a clam. but it MOVED. And it stood up and started walking sideways with it's lil snapper trying to duel me. hehe I really loved that crab I have a picture of me and him but THE OWNER OF THAT PICTURE IS ANNOYING. so maybe I will get it and when I do I will put it up here.

I started digging a large hole right at the edge of where the tide ended and put my feet in it and waves crashed on me as I stood there in that large hole and soon I was buried in the sand. it felt so good against my feet. and my sister almost pushed me over which would have broken my legs in half.

That night the father of the girl I went with took us out to the CRAB COOKER.

The Crab Cooker is MY FAVORITE RESTAURANT. There is CRAB there to eat. so good. and her daddy paid for all of us! I had the KING CRAB KILLER CLAWS!!! so rich and succulent.

Then we drove around for an hour because we got lost. and that is okay!
Then we found what we were looking for: fashion island. This place is posh. We went to juicy couture where a t-shirt was $150. I didn't buy it though. and anthropology was so beautiful.

DISNEYLAND

We arrived at the park at the time it opened: 8 am and left at the time it closed: midnight. 16 hours PACKED with so much fun. My favorite ride was SPACE MOUNTAIN!! I laughed hysterically the entire ride! It is inside and really dark with stars and planets all around you! You have no idea where you are going and I love that feeling!

We also went to California Adventure where my 2nd and 3rd and 4th favorite rides are:
2. Soarin over California - you are sitting in mid air in the middle of a half a globe screen so it feels like you are flying. they show great sites of California and they spray scents to go along with it. like flying over the citrus trees smells sooo good like oranges.
3. California Screamin: a wicked crazy fast outside rollercoaster
4. Tower of Terror: just like it sounds

I also took the Disney character test--which compares you to every character disney has ever had--and I am DOT from "A Bug's Life" hehe cute huh? I am so cute. jk



We placed a reservation for the Pirates of the Caribbean Restaurant "Blue Bayou" a couple months ago, so we got to eat there. SOOO romantic...if only I had a man there. and 40 dolla dolla a plate too! yeah I had crab again. You can never have too much crab!

I really love Disneyland. I didn't want to leave.

On our way out, it was raining and the sidewalks were slick, so I started trying to slide on them. My soles were too rugged so every time I would try to slide I would trip and in my naturally ungraceful way would stumble back to a proper stance. Well unbeknown to me, a couple was watching me and remarked "She's DRUNK!"
With all the strength I had left I replied "I'M SOBER!!!"

And that was Disneyland.

Welcome to the World, Ryan

He's my 4th nephew.

DISNEYLAND

Gina and me and two of her friends went to California last week.

We got there Thursday at 1:00 and went to the BEACH. I saw a divet in the snow, so I started digging and thought i hit a seashell. So I dug some more and it MOVED! It was a CRAB! So beautiful.

HAPPY 50th!!

Congratulations, this is your 50th post.

What should I be for Halloween?

Bellatrix Lestrange










Tracy Turnblad from Hairsray












A disney villain with my roommates












Or a Golden Girl with my roommates

Welcome to the World, Lexi

I have a new niece. And her name is Lexi.

Just some thoughts

I feel like my brains are being shaken up because I ride on that scooter. And my brains hurt right now.

Do you like my Halloween colors?

If not, Do you even like Halloween?

two spiders down, dozens to go

So last night I had to go to the parent's home and sleep there alone. because the dog needed to be let out and because i needed to study.
Well I went downstairs to turn off the space heater my gramma left on and guess who I saw in the basement living room after turning on the light? A HUMONGOUS HOBO SPIDER!
So I was really scared. Because I was all alone. usually with someone there with me I can act tough and get rid of it. but this one was really large! like as big as a silver dollar NO I AM NOT EXAGGERATING!
So I called my dad to ask where the space heater was and casually said there was a really big spider. He said I should step on it. Oh, right, and let it jump away as I put my foot down--then in my confused state allow it to climb up my pants and KILL me? So he said to throw a book on him--a large book. So I retrieved a phone book from upstairs and slowly moved my head around the corner. BAM! HE WAS STILL THERE. But the phone book was not heavy enough. a phone book would only give him a back scratch.
So I took a gander at my surroundings and saw a box of a dozen 16-ounce cans of tomatoes. Mmmmmhm! just what I needed. I stood outside the door of the living room, 10 feet away from my predator. The box in my hands started shaking from my fright. If there was a full grown man-eating murderer in that same spot I would have been more calm. So I counted to three and threw the box of cans from where I stood. The box slammed onto the spider and bounced back. he was SMASHED to BITS. So I told him, I said "who's the dead one now?" and jumped up and down in celebration.

It's really cold

But I refuse to drive a car and/or walk a mile to class until it is impossible for me to survive the three blocks I drive to class. I get to park 20 yards away from my classroom.

Exceptional

So about a year ago I became familiar with surveys and ratings that gave me the option of giving "exceptional" as the highest rating.
Exceptional? Isn't that WORSE than "fair" or "poor?" Like: "hey, this looks awesome EXCEPT you really messed up the whole story"
That makes sense. It was great--excepting an attribute--which made it exceptional.
I have always thought this term was NOT a compliment.
Then today I looked long and hard at the word, decided to read a definition, then firmly told myself: "okay, this word does not mean that." And so I had to change because I was wrong.

Wise

Today my teacher was like "Elizabeth Smart comes here! (to BYU) Has anyone seen her? Is she in any of your classes? Well she's not in any of mine. I haven't seen her around"
This made me think of Camille Cleverly, and I wondered if Elizabeth Smart helped search for Camille.
Then I thought of their last names: Smart and Cleverly.
All I am saying is that if your last name is Wise, you better watch out. You are next.

Bon Voyage, Marcilyn

When I first met you, I thought you were someone from my high school. One of those ballroom dancer girls. But you were not that girl, you were so much cooler!
We became roommates and I still recall the smell of our room, your smell. It was kind of a musky fall scent, and I will never forget it. When I think of that room I think of waking up in the middle of the night with those red and black elder bugs crawling on me.
We broke up with our beloved boyfriends and listened to break-up songs together on our front porch. That was our crucial bonding moment as friends. I looked up to your for being so strong and so independent. You are a smart girl and I wanted to be like you. (still do, girl--you are going to change the world!)
It's been a year now and you are going away. We talked on google chat and I sometimes look at our conversations and they make me laugh. I will miss your face and your scrunched-up frusterated/sillybilly look that you make sometimes haha
Have fun in england! Love you!

The second day of school was good too...

Yeah and I am sick.

And just barely I was bumping my head against the corner of the elevator on my way back to the office and 5 inches from my face hiding behind the railing was a spider...a big spider with strips meaning it was a HOBO

So I told my supervisor and asked if I should call the custodian of the bldg (because something like this was not in my job description)

Then I was like "no, I can kill this spider"

So I went to the custodial closet and retrieved a long pole with a duster at the end
And my supervisor supervised me as I poked the spider
And it jumped down and ran really fast toward another corner and I yelled (not remembering to be professional) "HE'S STILL ALIVE, HE'S RUNNING FAST!" so my supervisor stepped on him Real good with her shoe and I yelled, "YOU GOT HIM! HE'S DEAD!!"

And some random lady I've never seen before walked by and was like "It's just a spider? gosh."

But that was exciting

oh and the pole broke in half because that spider needed to go no matter what sacrifice was made.

So I put the broken pole/duster back in the custodial closet with a note that said "Sorry we broke your pole, it was used to kill a spider. <3, B-202"

Back to School, Back to School

Well I just went to my first day of School!
It will be a good year.
I have yet to go to the rest of my classes, but the first two were a HIT!

Goals for this semester:

• Talk to someone in each class everyday--whether it be the same person or move around and meet new people.
• Do every single reading assignment
• Go to every single class
• Complete every single assignment
• Stick to my hot hal cause and go down two sizes
• Stop making fun of people
• Stop saying things without thinking (atleast don't do it so frequently--like Sunday night my roommate and the guy she recently started dating were standing up to leave and I asked "so are you guys off to bed?" I meant are each of them, separately, going off to bed to SLEEP. Then later I was talking about how I liked the decorations in our living room except that jar full of sand and seashells and that we needed to throw that out the window...yeah...the owner of that jar, my roommate, was sitting right next to me. I didn't think it was her's!)

And...I need to get a hot man in my life...probably not going to happen